The Flawed Nickel

They said that you were beautiful Though their eyes told another story. They saw the eyes which were too big for your face. I saw only the quiet intensity in them. They found you too small in stature. I felt only the sweet warmth. They heard only hunger pangs in your cries. I heard the need for care and love. They saw only the smile on your lips. I felt your unconditional love in it. That’s all it took... The first few precious moments To fall in love with you –  My child, My second love. ----- Written years back.. when I was still in school.. 

 It has come a full circle.. It was exactly a year ago that I had a epiphany.. That I wasn't healthy at all and that I had gained too much weight with my negligence and that I had fallen out of love with myself. There was a time I used to be my own best friend. I was always positive and happy. I used to be alone but never lonely.  Now it seems to be the opposite.  And it was at that time.. when my laptop died and I was free from online distractions that I decided I need to change.. It was not a decision but  an impulsive action which led to me losing around 9 kgs in a year. Yeah that wasn't my goal. I should have gotten atleast 1-2 kgs down every month. But I started as usual procrastinating. Inspite of it, I am pretty happy with my progress. Because I have maintained my weight loss. And that is a big deal. Losing weight isn't easy but maintaining the weight loss is even harder.  All this I accomplished by having my dinner by 7 pm and eating home made meals. I had soups, sa